It is Jasyn's now.
So many people have ‘carried me’ on this end and I already have people coming forward in Tucson to walk alongside me. I’m grateful! For so long I have been in survival mode. I’m ready to do more, to be more. I want to ‘become’. I am putting no parameters on what that looks like, but the entirely new world of Tucson will allow that to unfold naturally. I am ready to embrace balance. I am ready to reach beyond sadness. I am ready to regain my health. I am ready…. Or at least I am telling myself so.
It's time to take care of myself. I have hurt all the way to my core and now it’s time to embrace the love we had by reminding myself of the joys we shared and to experience them again. To walk, hike, picnic, go to concerts, travel, laugh, eat health foods, and do all in my power to live a healthy life. I believe its time to stop ‘getting through’ and grab the gift we created in and for one another, to celebrate life each day. Not to forget the pain of separation, but to rejoice in what I experienced with Russ for so many years.
It's time. Let the winds blow. Let me float in the currents of life, to find the ‘me’ in the ‘we’.