re-braving-
what’s it all about
this interim time
this re-braving time
this time of adjustment
does it go on forever
or does it have
a beginning
a middle
and an end
was i really un-brave
or just focused
was it about me
or him
perhaps it was brave for him
and un-brave for me
oh he was definitely brave
so very brave
but me
I was merely holding on
begging God for strength
begging God to help me hold on day to day
and now...
I am finally able
to take on bravery
as i face a world without him
and now…
i wake with the hope
to rethink bravery
to begin each day in light
to be intentional
to hold on
be brave
yesterday is gone
tomorrow has not yet come
today is my world view
i must live it
i must be kind
and try my best
i must be brave
It all seems so easy when you read about it, but when you are caught in the web of disappointment and heartache, it becomes a slippery illusion. I was having a really rough day on Monday. I was anything but brave; I was folded inward. For me that was comforting, like a protective hug.
We all cycle through emotions, but our culture wants our outer display to be buoyant, refreshing, hopeful. Digging deeper into the why of my mood that day, I would say it's introspective in nature, a way for me to cool my heart and mind and allow myself to regroup, and in this case a time to find some space to re-brave.