Presently I am in that space. The space between my feelings and Russ', the space between Russ giving Parkinson's every ounce of his attention and me giving it every ounce of my fear. We interpret it from distance places, but we both, in our own way, keep on...keeping on.
I know there is a time for everything, including stillness and sadness. I can't skip parts of the story and must give what I have in the moment... sadness, heartache, happiness or joy. Nobody is in a sustained state of happiness forever! Somehow though, our culture encourages that perception.
For some reason I think I always know the right answer. I think I can plan ahead for the next hour, day, week, but sadly I can't. Really, if I could look 'around the corner' I might see the incredible feats lurking and needing my attention. I do know life is meant to be survived. I was not led to believe that my life would be all beauty and happiness. It most certainly has NOT unfolded that way. (Is it permissible to put many, many exclamations points here?) My newish goal is to step aside now and then, and let those around the corner surprises unfold. I need to acknowledge life's circuitous path... it's all mine!
I do know that with life's challenges I have taught myself to be happy for what does come to me and not what doesn't...Pollyanna in action! Keep On, Keeping On.