I have always liked to feel grounded in my home base. I think I found that here in Tucson. I am learning to grow, to find myself with Russ in the shadows of my mind.
heartwarming -
i have been in and out
up and down
over and over
i have tried weaving the strands of my life together
patching hole after hole
and finally realizing my strength
in the journey
came from the very act of trying
for the past year
the voice in my head
was loud enough to hear
but still too distant to understand
until finally
i stopped
closed my eyes
and listened closely
it came to me
to have joy
i must make it
and take it
just wanting it wasn’t enough
it came to me
to release and refocus
to clean my lens on life
i had some cleaning to do
with eyes wide open
i landed in tucson
blessed
finding a house with rooms that beckoned me
the style soothed me
the light hugged me
it was safe
enough room to hold
my laughter
my tears
my memories
it is my own
it is home
russ still lives here
but only in my heart
and still
on the silent days
i miss him a little louder
my days
in this big city
are
in and out
up and down
over and over
i weave the strands together
my life