disappointed in myself-
have you ever had that feeling
of unmet expectations
failure to achieve a goal
regret over words or actions
you know…
you don’t feel happy
or social
or open
you are in a rocky moment
you have no ability to consider another’s opinion
or your own state of mind
maybe it’s just hard to get excited about something
me?
my mind is ebbing and flowing
it is
excitement and boredom
confidence and insecurity
joy and discouragement
all the while
in those moments
i know i am the one who must change
my attitude
the kindness i gift others with
to be non-judgmental
i know
being human
is a state of mind
with twists and turns
i must put away expectations
live beyond a label
and sometimes
i even have to rebuild my soul
i need to remember
always
not to criticize others
because they sin
differently than me
life is certainly a journey
i won’t beat myself up
i will seek to regroup
be kind
and try my best
...and there you have the restorative power of a hike, beautiful scenery and sun.