The easy path is to live life with my thoughts firmly fixed in the past or to search ahead for whatever possibility may show up. But really? There is only now, right here, right now. With that, I need to focus energy and thought valuing 'now', the present, the gift that will, in the end, move me forward. That sounds plausible and 'nice', but it is not the easiest to achieve. I suppose I should be taking the saddest part of life right now, my memories of all the amazing things Russ and I did and achieved, and just carry them with me in this moment, this day. I need to let them gift me with the sheer goodness that they happened, that we happened. Wallowing in the past or dreaming of the future will be a weight on my soul, I need only to focus on the loving memories that flit through my mind today as I move from moment to moment.
Ready. Set. Go. If at first I don't succeed, I will keep on trying.