See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
Isaiah 43:19
This world I am now living in is ALL new... new house, new friends, new activities, new support people, all new health care people, new church, new insurance needs, no job... you name it, I am braving this new world as I wake to each day.
The one constant is that Gail and Ron live here and have been my solid foundation. I was not completely adrift in Tucson upon my arrival, but grounded in their stable base. Thank goodness!
my new world –
it’s bittersweet
i’ve been
making it through
but it’s not always ‘pretty’
i have had to work hard
to make space
to allow good things to happen
to be transformed
i have had to ‘allow’ grief in
it’s part of the human experience
but i can’t
i just can’t
let it define me
i have let the tears flow
sometimes with my face scrunched in pain
and now
in spring
the cactus are here
bursting in bloom
my constant reminder
that it’s time to reorient
to do an interior remodel
you
my dear russ
have escaped parkinson’s
we learned
we loved
and stumbled
and caught ourselves through it all
today i drink in the sky
the cactus
and their glorious and delicate flowers
in gratitude
i drink the bittersweet discovery
of life
and begin to learn
to live life
in a new way