Just my view of you, but I see you as joy and love and endless care for others. I see you living in the world on the pretty side. I agree that you generally keep your vulnerabilities locked in your heart and perhaps shared with just a few, so what the world always sees is the smile and what they hear is your laugh.
I on the other hand probably share too much. I know it turns some people 'off' through their own fear of acceptance in our life on our earthly path. I have been leaning into the reality of Russ' illness and decline to be 'real' with others. I share in person, I share on my blog and I share in my Parkinson's wives group. I share by saying I am "good-ish" when people ask how Russ is or how I am. Some people do not have the faith to face it. But I firmly believe that Russ is 'daring greatly' on his journey. Tearful and sad as I am, I do know it is real and true and leaving earth for 'God's country' is inevitable. It is not something to be feared, but to take the journey in love and hope.
It takes courage and strength live into your very real life. I believe I have no other option. And I must always, always know God walks with me and if I get stuck in a moment, a detail or the reality of life slipping away, then I must look up and change my perspective.
This poem flit across my news feed the other day and I really liked it, showing both the dark and light side of choices. First read top to bottom, pause, how does it make you feel? Then read it from the bottom to the top, pause, how does it make you feel?
THE WORST DAY EVER
By Chanie Gorkin
Today was the absolute worst day ever
And don’t try to convince me that
There’s something good in every day
Because when you take a closer look,
This world is a pretty evil place.
Even if
Some goodness does shine through once in a while
Satisfaction and happiness don’t last.
And it’s not true that
It’s all in the mind and the heart
Because
True happiness can be attained
Only if one’s surroundings are good
It’s not true that good exists
I’m sure you can agree that
The reality
Creates
My attitude
It’s all beyond my control
And you’ll never in a million years hear me say
Today was a very good day.
May God shine within you today. Sending virtual hugs.
Linda