I realized my journey of grief has moved me from complete reliance on the past to stepping towards living in the present. I am successful some days or some minutes, but then I slide effortlessly into the past, the story of Russ memories, coupledom.
The Yin Yang symbol is my story...two self views. I don't believe we are one or the other, but always trying to find a truth-filled balance.
While checking my ring, I felt a bit of a Christmas Miracle showing itself to me; I was able to see myself as part Yin and part Yang, and that shouts HOPE.
I felt, in that moment, a balance of my Yin and Yang. I felt I was living harmoniously. For three very long years I have been fighting myself...my heart wants one thing and my mind wants another. My goal, with the help of so many kind and loving people, prayer and reflection has been to maintain my energy reserves to stay sane. I will continue to seek balance mentally, physically and emotionally. I am tired of walking the wire so will embrace the Christmas miracle.